Reflections of a Night on Trauma Surgery

A beep and a clack, the double doors groan back

Outwards they swing as the trauma rolls in to bay three

Green-clad staff like soldiers standing by at the ready

Blue-gloved and armed with supplies a-plenty

Wires and tubes and needles gleaming

And mathematician machines that blink numerous numbers on screens

Then controlled chaos erupts in a flurry

Efficiently assessing to prevent a coding

Airway, breathing, and circulation are the staples of knowing

It’s a complicated dance that’s been well rehearsed

One that I have yet to be well-versed

Stumbling back and forth, weaving in and out, my own awkward sway

My attempts to jump in on the fray, and also stay out of the way

Ah, to the operating room we go, for we must know

What that silver blazing streak hit, and what was a near miss

The stage is set, the lights lifted, the instruments lined up like flowers to be picked

And the surgeon begins conducting a ballad with which I have more familiarity

Hold this, cut that, short here and long there

Hands dancing to a melody that I’m coming to enjoy dearly

A final stitch is thrown, the drapes are dropped away, the hero of this odyssey is rolled safely back to recovery

Retracing my steps through the hallways, past the big window that stands sentinel by the doorway

I can only pause in awe as the sun rises above a twinkling city, splashing the sky in streaks of lilac, tangerine, and a shade just shy of burgundy

And my reflection faintly blinking back at me, smiling at this gift of a new morning

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Kathleen LeFiles is a medical student from the Class of 2026 at The University of Arizona College of Medicine - Phoenix. She graduated in 2020 from The University of Arizona in Tucson with a degree in Physiology and a minor in Care, Health, and Society. When she's not studying or writing, Kathleen enjoys practicing Pilates and yoga, frequenting local coffee shops, and listening to pop music. Feel free to contact her @kathleenlefiles on Instagram or email at klefiles@arizona.edu.